I’ve been soul searching, trying to find my way around this new but old place. Over a month ago, I found a job that I thought was going to make life easier. It didn’t. In fact, it was something I had no desire to do. I struggled everyday. Moaned and groaned about it being miserable. It’s funny because everyone I was working with was great. Everyone was so supportive and was willing to help me become “successful”. I felt terrible because these people were willing to stick their necks out for me and help me out. Deep inside, I already knew this wasn’t the job for me. In the end, I had to come to terms with the fact that it just wasn’t the right fit. So I quit. I quit without having anything else lined up. I quit because I knew I couldn’t prolong the inevitable.
So here I am now, jobless and wondering what’s going to happen next. It’s a strange place to be, honestly. You’re kind of in lala land. But I’m taking it day by day. Each day I’m exploring a change in young adulthood. Figuring out what it is I actually want to do. (And applying for jobs like crazy. Because let’s be honest, the air isn’t going to pay my bills!)
While that’s happening, I also happen to have a lot of time on my hands. I’m back into the groove of working out and eating healthy…ish. Ok, heavier on the ish part.
After Bikram today, I needed a little snack. I grabbed some sourdough bread and olive oil for dipping. And just for fun I added these goodies:
Dukkah: Egyptian spice blend of almonds, sesame seeds, fennel seeds, coriander, anise seed and salt
Za’atar or Zahtar: Middle Eastern spice blend of sumac*, sesame seeds and thyme.
I mixed the Dukkah and the Za’atar with the olive oil, took my sourdough for a dunkin’ and began to think life ain’t half bad.
Gah, the mix is so good! If you’re looking to try it out. You can buy Dukkah at Trader Joes and Za’atar online at The Spice Hut.
Happy Soul Searching!
*Sumac is a spice that comes from a shrub-like plant. It’s flavor is tart and lemony.